crash and burn

i think a part of me just died.

the walls are closing in on me.

dragged to the abyssal depths where noone, not even you, can reach me.

gonna crash & burn for now,
please let me heal later.

to my bestie

happy 21st,
my moral center of the universe.

i (heart) you.

to my dearest cousin

happy 23rd birthday.
your gift is on its way.

love and misses,
needless for more words.

small is beautiful

/petite lil' bookstore much to my liking.

mondays made more bearable with wakana-san around.
it's time, but the crankiness hasn't quite set in yet.

mood is weather dependent.

frustrating is to hot & humid, just as:
a) stupid : thunderstorms
b) dumb: cloudy
c) retarded : light showers
d) needy : chilly
e) none of the above.

good luck, and goodbye

days 00 hrs 00 mins 58 secs 02

counting down to a miracle.
to the mark of new history.
to multitudinous cries worldwide.

good luck, and goodbye.

funkytown

6th Shanghai Nanjing Road Sculpture Exhibition

my favourite piece.
you only see what your heart wants you to see.

lost in translation

here i sit, staring blankly at the overwhelming chinese characters.

inadequate & frustrated.
ignoring the backdrop calls that beckon.

last i heard was "janice, we're going to Wuxi at 11."

been feeling a surge of emotions the past 3 days that i'm not sure if i am able to comprehend.

slightly more than an hour to prepare.
i'll get back to this mystifying realm of i-don't-know-what-to-call-it again.

to my heart's content

/le grandeur arrival.

/beautiful people.

/toodles noodles. be back for you again.

/the L affair & solitary pukefest.

/table 108 of the musically inclined.

/never been better.

/recharged.

/the one. revisited.

/s.EX incomplete.

/bonbon, shanghai.

/superstar.
missin' you

Golden Week

29th Sept//
1. arrival
2. seafood galore @ turf city
3. haagen dazs @ siglap
4. ph

30th Sept//
1. nydc @ wheelock place
2. haato ice cream @ wheelock place
3. holland ave
4. ph
5. mooncake festival bbq @ ballota
6. home
7. ph

1st Oct//
1. ladyj delivery services around pasir ris & tampines
2. sakae sushi @ marina square
3. chinese grand prix @ ph
4. 5 star chicken rice along east coast rd
5. ph

2nd Oct//
1. macs brekkies @ ph
2. shopping with the catalyst in town
3. coffee club @ marina square
4. zi char along east coast rd
5. poker @ ph
6. macs supper

3rd Oct//
1. coffee club @ siglap
2. gelare @ siglap

4th Oct//
1. poh piah @ home
2. lesbian love @ phuture
3. gracie's
4. ph

5th Oct//
1. duck rice @ pasir panjang
2. ladyj delivery service in NUS
3. coffee club xpress @ fass
4. crash geog lect
5. killiney kopitiam @ marina square
6. meet up with NOC 7th batch @ kenny rogers, marina square
7. ba chor mee along east coast road

6th Oct//
1. KW Chan medical clinic & surgery
2. pasta fresca da salvatore @ siglap
3. kim's hokkien mee @ liang seah st.
4. table 108 @ chijmes
5. home
6. macs supper @ ph
7. home

7th Oct//
1. prawn noodle @ home
2. ladyj delivery service to jesslyn's
3. mum's bday celebration @ waraku, marina square
4. ktv @ the one
5. ph

8th Oct//
1. japanese grand prix @ ph
2. home-cooked food @ ph
3. zi char @ changi village

9th Oct//
1. HSS library @ NUS
2. appointment with DWE @ GSI, tuas
3. s.EX quickie @ NTU Hall of Residences 3
4. stranded @ parkway parade
5. ph
6. coffee club @ orchard fountain corner
7. ph

10th Oct//
1. sakae sushi @ century square
2. home
3. ladyj delivery service to bubbles'
4. home
5. kopitiam @ T1
6. departure

the rest, i can't quite recall.

Les Miserables

greeted by chill winds, besprinkled with occasional droplets. narrow spaces, unwashed hair, grimy fingers, unshaven pits, nauseating smell...umbrellas carried around like weaponry, threatening to disfigure oblivious faces or steal one's sight. what more could you possibly add on, to dampen the mood of the home\lovesick?
sarcasm.
nonchalance.
tension.
followed by an aggravated case of insomnia.

baby, please spare me the misery.
am sorry for the irrational, senseless harsh words hurled at you in fits of anger and distress.
it's the workings of my defense mechanism.
please try to understand.
i love you.

黄山

/2 days.388 shots.

/the people.

/rising star.

/double the joy.

/stairway to heaven.

/your average jan.

/chain of fools.
could i still lock your heart where proximity fails us?

/fly.

/cast of triplets.

/sweet valley.

/footworks.

beautiful\crazy.

/God's gift.

It's a hard knock life

/southeast CDC dinner.
-070906-
a life without shortcuts is a life most meaningful.

498 & counting

sums up to 498 till this day.
happy birthday, my love.
it felt as though the fireworks over at century park were meant for you.

/746 to fudan university.
mondays 0955-2030.

/chartres.
pennsylvania decor strikes a chord. familiarity of the cosy home back in sg.
sweet.

/marriott.
politics over tea, coffee, smoothies.

/M.E.I Sharing session.

/wangxi, a local friend.
sugar, spice & everything nice.

/signboard screams HEALTH.
no oil, no salt, no sugar whatsover.

-speakeasy

freedom of speech curtailed.
speak easy,
what irony.

Afterall

OSKA sent 8/30/2006 2:43 AM:
I know in my heart and mind
That no matter, come what may, love will survive

After all
I will be the one to hold you
I will be the one to hold you in my arms

teared at the sight of the lyrics.
teared at the sight of oska's photos.

love.

1918

came across the number @ work.
missin' it, but more so its' owner.
buy 4d!!!

quest for subway around the vicinity of people's square begins!

Gimme some love

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind says:i love you la babe.
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind says:u dunno how much but i do

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind says:i loveee u babe..
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind says:everything hurts

the hillside, home-cooked fried rice, stayovers, retail therapies, jalan rimau...etc. etc. etc.
it's so much more than just lesbian tendencies.
you'll see me in no time, i promise! plus the Holland-er won't be away for long!
& there's still half the club left: lu, brown, yq.
chuck the carrots aside for other veggies. i prefer leaves to roots.
love!

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another sleepless night.
because of you.
what am i to do?

Lifetime

/Launch of Overseas Singaporean Portal @ The Regent Hotel.
-270806-

/noc mates, with DPM Wong & CG Chan. /with musical talents, Andrea Teo & Mark Chan.
/partial 6th batch. /Hardo HuuuuUuuu-ang poseurs.

/Suz & Jan @ Babela's Kitchen.
-250806-

/sponsored dinner @ Intercontinental Pudong hotel with uncle joseph.
-240806-
i am not disappearing!!!

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I can let my life pass me by
or I can get down and try
work it all out this lifetime
work it on out this time
I can let it all pass me by
or I can get down and try
work it all out this lifetime, lifetime

the addiction has been intensified. Maxwell's classics have become part of my daily routine, sending me into temporary frames of melancholia too many a times. love is not a fairytale in a melody, neither is it in reality. still, i want it to survive throughout this lifetime, and not just within the year. screw the jealousies.

important announcement:
latest handphone bill amounts to S$474 without the cents.

suggestions to the much loved people back in S'pore:
1) less calls, more skype or msn @ jantanice.

2) weekdays 0830 - 1730 call +86 21 61225238
3) other times, call +86 136 1166 9243

jan...out.

1st month in Shanghai

/the bestie, sis si, & neh di.
thank you for accompanying me during the 1st week of my stay, lurbch.

/cheena lady dancing in skimpy outfits @ windows tempo(1st club visited):

/西唐.
290706
/Tiger Translate @ Shanghai Sculptures.
050806
beng, ntu peepsies, & a new found local friend, Angela.

/NDP Dinner @ Le Meridien.
060806
i love Singapore. really.
absolutely adore the lil' performers.


/actual National Day @ crossroad, Raffles City.
090806
beng, the housemate.

/Studio 54, Minx.
120806